Today was my first shoot. I thought I wouldn’t be nervous until I was on my way this morning, and then it hit me. It is a pretty nerve racking experience. It was so much fun though, which I honestly didn’t think it would be. I met Addison and having her on the set helped calm my nerves. I like to dress up and look cute but I also love to just be comfy and feel free. I think that is why I’ve always wanted to live on the beach because I could be naked most of the time. Sounds funny, but it is true. One day, I want to work in the medical field, but we’ll see how all of that works out.
Since I was a little girl modeling always looked fun to me, little did I know I would grow up to look the way I do and model with my clothes off, but hey, whatever works. I can’t say it isn’t something I have always wanted to try. I think girls in the porn industry are girls to look up to, for the most part. It takes a lot of gut to take your clothes off knowing everyone everywhere is and can see this whenever they want too. When I was a little bit older and understood it more my goal was to be a centerfold in Playboy magazine. Clearly, plans don’t always workout how you want them to, but I guess you have to start somewhere now don’t we. Anyways, I think my shoot today was a great eye opener on what to expect and how I will work in this business. It was pretty awkward all day, running around naked in public and all. Being naked in public always sounds like a great idea until you have to do it. I think it feels a little different when the pressure isn’t on you. I feel like I was nervous and wasn’t always meeting up to what was wanted and/or expected of me. That is ok for me though, I put forth my best effort and like I’ve said before it was my first day so I wasn’t even really sure what to expect of myself. Overall, it was fun and I think it was a great learning experience, and besides I think I made a new friend out of it. Hopefully I did alright and will be back again, and maybe get to do more jobs similar to this one because of this one!