Though I was fully expecting what happened today on the shoot I didn’t expect an essay was involved! I’ve done a little modeling in the past but nothing like this so I really had to think about it for a while. We’ve been talking of shooting for FTV for a year now and I finally took the plunge. I wanted to lose some weight and get into better shape before I ended up on this website. The girls here all seem gorgeous and I didn’t think I would fit in. After seeing the pictures we took and that coverpage pic I’m actually happy that it all turned out even if I wasn’t as spontaneous as some of the other girls on the site. I also didn’t know how much I’m supposed to act or be myself even though the photographer said for me to ‘be myself’. The girls seem so outgoing on the site that I felt I needed to be a little more vocal than I normally am, even when masturbating. I masturbate all the time and so when I did it for the first time I was really nervous about it even if it doesn’t show. The public nudity made me the most nervous and people actually saw me!